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Friday, February 8, 2008

I smile when im angry =D

i realise that i have this weird thing abt me lately...
where if a person makes me feel upset,pissed off,angry or anything negative...
i will juz either keep quiet,smile,talk nicely/seriously or walk away...
i will try my bez not to beat(if a guy) or raise my voice(if a girl) to the person...
i know deep down that im angry or pissed off...
but somehow i juz couldnt bring myself to be angry w the person...
coz if i was ever to do such thing to the person...
scolding,ignoring,raising my voice...
i will usually end up being the one who said sorri first...
when it wasnt even me who started it...

yup...
i guess i always have that guilty feeling in me...
i will feel bad for being angry w the person...
for being harsh to the person...
and wats worse is...
sometimes wen im angry w someone...
i don let out the anger to that someone...
but rather to myself...
and i do at times,go to the extent of hurting myself physically...
unbelievable huh???
but its true...

wen i start to feel angry w a person...
firstly,i will try and talk nicely...
if the person doesnt stop....
i will den smile...
if he/she continues...
i will juz keep quiet and have an expressionless/serious face...
yet if the person still insist on disturbing me...
i will walk away briskly....
and thats when my hand will start feeling like punching the walls...
worst comes to worst...
there's always that small sharp object in my coin pocket of the jeans...

so ppl...plz try not to make me angry...
i know that i will do my best nt to do anything to u...
but if u like to see blood coming out of me...
den i welcome u to make me angry...
as often as u like...

i know some of my classmates when they disturb/tease me...
that they will expect me to be rough to them...
that i will slap their back...
that i will box their hand...
that i will pinch them...
coz im the 'bouncer'...
and im the 'fighter'...
but i guess,from now on...
its not anymore...

i dont mean to say that im a gal who cant be disturb or tease...
disturb or tease me if u want...
but once i ask u to stop...
plz stop...
coz everyone have their own limits...

i may b a girl who seldom talk...
coz i grew up in a situation where i will be punished first before i was told my fault...
and i believe that usually,too much talk will onli go to deaf ears...
and that at times,action is the best resort...
like they say action speaks louder than words...
i may not be like some other girls whom when angry...
they will just start screaming or give a sour face...
im the type of girl whom, when provoked...
u may not knw thats what i feel...
coz i may even laugh when im angry deep down...
thats me...
beneath the silence lies thousands of unknown feelings...

i guess thats all i wana say for now...
wani angry = wani smile = wani hurt...

...Smile When Provoked,It Will Surprise Your 'Enemy'...
.:WaNiZ:.

*if u see me smiling,pls be careful ;p
*if u see me walking off briskly,pls dont follow :)
*if u see me keeping quiet,pls dont ask me questions =)
*if u heard me saying stop while laughing(if the butt of the joke is on me),pls take it seriously =D
p.s. thank u for making me angry (",)

posted at 2/08/2008 03:27:00 AM