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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Slacking...

Right now in E308...While waiting for training to start at 6...which means that i got like another 5 hours to go...supposingly have to do the props...but i juz donoe wat to proceed on...wana do d backdrop but hav to wait for Kat..coz she's the one who know wat to do..basically im juz there to help her out...the big HP is outside..being painted by Liana Baby n Rau...Want to help but i juz feel weird there especially wen Liana is w Syamim...ive always felt weird around couples..haha..and furthermore i dont know where's the other brush....

Haiz..im now online at my Fitri's account..FY is online but somehow,we r juz not talking..mayb he's bz..or mayb he juz cant be bothered to layan me anymore...but den,y should i feel bad..wen at the first place,i knew that he's juz an acquaintance..nothing more than that..oh well,he's offline already...the next time i online...and he's online..i will not initiate the convo first..coz aku takot aku ni mcm irritating gitu asik nk bbual dgn die..sapelah aku ni kan...

Yesterday,wen i got back home...i received an offline msg from Ahirul..was i surprised that he actualli ask me to talk to him if he was still online..haha...but too bad,he wasnt..he was saying that he hope by me talking to him,he can feel ALIVE..haha..i didnt know i can make anyone feel alive...ive always thought that im a boring person...myt it be online or offline..and that ppl can juz get damn sian while talking to me...somehow he made me feel touched...touched that there's someone who want to talk to me..but yeah..i realli donoe if i can make him feel alive yet again...and somehow...he make me miss someone...someone whom ive not been contacting for quite some time...but itz all in d paz...n i wish to forget that someone..but i know i cant..coz he did meant someone special to me then and still he is..too bad,things happen n now itz no longer the same btwn me n him...

My character is slacking,i think..i have to be lebih2...like what my son 'Aidil' said...but can i???i will surely try my best...but i dont know if my bez is good enuf for the rez...i dont want to feel guilty on that day...and seriously...no cock up on my side pls...well...im getting bored here...shall cont nx time k..

Lost,disappointed and bored...

.:WaNiZ:.

posted at 11/07/2007 12:49:00 PM